sometime, something, someone

Sometimes
when you want something sooooooo bad
you lose all insight on how to attain said something
i
don't know what to do with myself anymore
really
is this good/bad ? (what's good or bad anyways?)
consumed with
these thoughts
is sometimes
too much
i find myself
lost
out there somewhere
asking myself
is this even real?
i let go too much
i feel too much
i care too much
out of my body
there
always